It's Happened

Ethan left yesterday. It was hard, but not as hard as I thought. Well, I lie. It was very hard...but I tried my hardest to control myself. We prayed at church, and it broke my heart when he said "Protect her while I can't" and proceeded to cry some. Then as we sat in my car just holding each other those last few hours, I cried on and off but we were happy together. A lot of emotions were going through my mind and all I could think was that I love him and that he's the best for me. When I dropped him off I couldn't let go or stop the tears. While I didn't sob, I did steadily cry. Then, as we finally let go of each other and were going to say bye, he cried. That broke me again. But he got it under control and then he walked away...that was so hard for me to watch...but he told me he'd be back for me sooner than I thought...and gave me a signal of hope for something shiney when he gets back.

Today was okay...I slept in (after going to bed right at 10:30) to about 10 before running to Walmart with Katie and Mom. My sister has been the best today. When I got on facebook when I woke up and seeing everything made me cry, she comforted me and gave me her iTouch to play with so I could throw birds at pigs to cheer up. Then I made stir fry for Peyton before we hung out and played in the pool some. Then she had to leave to take her brother to swim practice. Now mom and I have been watching NCIS and having us time. :)

Oh, and Ethan just called me...he landed safely. Oh hearing his voice was heaven...I love him so much and so completely that it is insane yet it will sustain me (as will God). Ethan, I know you can't read this, but: I LOVE YOU and August 19th can't come fast enough...