Wow

It's been a long time hasn't it blog? I'm gonna shake off the dust and start you back up again. Welcome home <3

YAY

ETHAN CALLED!!!!

Be still my beating heart

i continue to run out of peace and rest around the same time every night, and with the exception of sleeping all the time i don't know what to do. i am praying, but i guess it could be harder, but i still hurt. and mike coming home this weekend from bootcamp makes it so hard. so so so so hard. i don't know if i'll be able to be around jessica and mike. as much as i want to see mike on sunday, it may be to much for me.

i think just a simple letter, phone call (which won't happen), or anything would make me feel better. i just need something! im tired of being strong, i just want someone else to be strong for me. i miss my best friend so much, i need him around...i want my best friend back, stupid navy taking him away

And still my heart and body aches for you

So yesterday was kind of tough, but after class mom and katie kept me busy shopping. We ate Olive Garden and then went shopping for like hours....no lie...haha. I got some cute stuff for London, but by the end I just wanted to be alone and think..but then being alone just makes me sad and lonely, so I need to find a balance.

Today I woke up and called his recruiter but he told me to call back later for his number. After class I met up with Jordan and Joshie-poo and we colored and painted. :) We even made pictures to send to ethan, haha :) I also discovered that Josh just has this kind of special hug that makes my heart stop aching, even if it is only for just a second. After a pizza dinner we headed off to the Cupcake Shoppe where I DEVOURED my cupcake. And I just want to say THANK YOU to Jordan for letting me spend time with her and Josh today...and I'm sorry that he was hugging all on me and not you...but then again you live with him now ;)

As I was listening to the iPod and driving home I realized that even though I keep my mind constantly busy during the day by the time it's like 8pm I'm exhausted because I won't let my brain rest. Then when my brain does rest all I want to do is curl up and think of Ethan. And no matter what, at the end of the day my heart, and body only continues to ache for his voice, hug, and just knowing how his day was. But praying John 14:27 before I sleep and right when I wake up. I also pray during the day too, but raying at those instances are slowly making my dreams better and the mornings better as well...