YAY

ETHAN CALLED!!!!

Be still my beating heart

i continue to run out of peace and rest around the same time every night, and with the exception of sleeping all the time i don't know what to do. i am praying, but i guess it could be harder, but i still hurt. and mike coming home this weekend from bootcamp makes it so hard. so so so so hard. i don't know if i'll be able to be around jessica and mike. as much as i want to see mike on sunday, it may be to much for me.

i think just a simple letter, phone call (which won't happen), or anything would make me feel better. i just need something! im tired of being strong, i just want someone else to be strong for me. i miss my best friend so much, i need him around...i want my best friend back, stupid navy taking him away

And still my heart and body aches for you

So yesterday was kind of tough, but after class mom and katie kept me busy shopping. We ate Olive Garden and then went shopping for like hours....no lie...haha. I got some cute stuff for London, but by the end I just wanted to be alone and think..but then being alone just makes me sad and lonely, so I need to find a balance.

Today I woke up and called his recruiter but he told me to call back later for his number. After class I met up with Jordan and Joshie-poo and we colored and painted. :) We even made pictures to send to ethan, haha :) I also discovered that Josh just has this kind of special hug that makes my heart stop aching, even if it is only for just a second. After a pizza dinner we headed off to the Cupcake Shoppe where I DEVOURED my cupcake. And I just want to say THANK YOU to Jordan for letting me spend time with her and Josh today...and I'm sorry that he was hugging all on me and not you...but then again you live with him now ;)

As I was listening to the iPod and driving home I realized that even though I keep my mind constantly busy during the day by the time it's like 8pm I'm exhausted because I won't let my brain rest. Then when my brain does rest all I want to do is curl up and think of Ethan. And no matter what, at the end of the day my heart, and body only continues to ache for his voice, hug, and just knowing how his day was. But praying John 14:27 before I sleep and right when I wake up. I also pray during the day too, but raying at those instances are slowly making my dreams better and the mornings better as well...

John 14:27

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not le tyour hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

that is what I have been praying both for Ethan and I. This morning is better because of that. better update later...for now it's school time then Jordan and Joshie time...

Lies

They say it's supposed to get easier with everyday...

I think they lied to me.

It's Happened

Ethan left yesterday. It was hard, but not as hard as I thought. Well, I lie. It was very hard...but I tried my hardest to control myself. We prayed at church, and it broke my heart when he said "Protect her while I can't" and proceeded to cry some. Then as we sat in my car just holding each other those last few hours, I cried on and off but we were happy together. A lot of emotions were going through my mind and all I could think was that I love him and that he's the best for me. When I dropped him off I couldn't let go or stop the tears. While I didn't sob, I did steadily cry. Then, as we finally let go of each other and were going to say bye, he cried. That broke me again. But he got it under control and then he walked away...that was so hard for me to watch...but he told me he'd be back for me sooner than I thought...and gave me a signal of hope for something shiney when he gets back.

Today was okay...I slept in (after going to bed right at 10:30) to about 10 before running to Walmart with Katie and Mom. My sister has been the best today. When I got on facebook when I woke up and seeing everything made me cry, she comforted me and gave me her iTouch to play with so I could throw birds at pigs to cheer up. Then I made stir fry for Peyton before we hung out and played in the pool some. Then she had to leave to take her brother to swim practice. Now mom and I have been watching NCIS and having us time. :)

Oh, and Ethan just called me...he landed safely. Oh hearing his voice was heaven...I love him so much and so completely that it is insane yet it will sustain me (as will God). Ethan, I know you can't read this, but: I LOVE YOU and August 19th can't come fast enough...

EDU-241 Blog Post #3

This week I have worked with Powerpoint, Word, the interent, Web Expressions, and other sources to create a Webquest. While I had used all of these softwares before, using them as one collective unit was more difficult then I thought. I had to make sure everything flowed together correctly and matched what the other document was saying. This was helpful for me to work on before I go into the classroom becuase it allows me the chance to use multiple pieces of technology in the class to create seamless presentations, projects, or other activities for my students.

Webquest was a new experience for me, and as I made it I saw how useful it was for the class. Through just one webquest I meet multiple NCSCOS goals as well as some Wake County goals. In the future, using a webquest will allow me to not only allow the students to use technology but to show them how multiple softwares can work together and create a beautiful project.

EDU-241 Blog #2

This week we talked about using Excel, databases, and PowerPoint's in the classroom. I already knew how to make a PowerPoint, and I've used it several times when teaching a class. I had used Excel before, but I did not know how to do a lot of the things I learned this week.

Learning how to make grade books in Excel was very valuable to me because that means I can keep track grades more easily and make less mistakes as I do the math because the computer helps me keep track and average correctly. I also learned little tidbits in Excel like how to lock a row so that whenever you scroll it keeps the same column/row there. This is useful for grade books because I can enter the correct grades for a student without having to scroll back and forth to check that I have the right names.

Databases are also useful for me to have learned to create and use because it makes emails, letters, and anything else in which I will need to use the student's and the parent/guardian's contact information. I can just make labels straight from the database without having to hand-write out 100 letters for all of my classes.