21 days

Dear Blog,
I am upset. for several reason. here is a mini (MINI) list:
a) not going to the mountains -> ethan doesn't seem to be doing anything about it
b) he's gonna go for a day without me to the mountains to see his family
c) the weekend of his going away party I have some stupid t.fellows thing that requires me to be gone all day friday (I have to miss a class and may now fail summer school) and then saturday the t.fellows lady said she'd let me off early. however, "early" could mean 9pm [i can't find the email] and i would miss his party. makes me look like a great girlfriend.
d) he keeps getting mad at me saying i'm "not happy for him and the navy" and that all I say is that I'm so sad about him leaving which is the exact opposite. i hardly say i'm sad and i'm always telling him i'm happy for him and help him with his stuff for it...
 
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm three weekends from his leaving (the third is the actual weekend of leaving) and I feel like I'll never have anytime with him now. Thanks to summer school, his work, and stupid CURFEWS and idiotic money problems...good bye any special moments we had planned. I'm just so frustrated and upset because it looks like the world is conspiring against me. I just want to pause time so I can just not have to worry about the days dwindling down.
 
sorry this was so teen-angst like.